That awful, awful feeling...

by Mel dela Pena

When no one appreciates what you do.

When people don't realize how much they are hurting you, but instead of making a fuss out of it, you keep it all in.

When people who you love dearly take you for granted.

When one of your closest friends choose to be dishonest with you and talk you out of something thinking it was concern but rather an ulterior motive.

When people choose to ignore you because to them you seem irrelevant now.

When people ask for your help but never get a 'thank you' in return.

When you realize that you are fighting the wrong battle.

When you should've said no a long time ago, but kept on saying yes.

When you are forced to be indifferent when everything is eating you up inside.

When running away becomes one of your choices as a solution.

When you feel a connivance forming against you - with your so-called friends in it.

When you realize that a close friend has turned out to be someone you just used to know.

When bridges built and tested for years are burnt in a snap of a finger.

When you are starting to be replaced by someone else because you were never good enough.

When people who you thought cared about you, actually didn't.

When no one understands, and no one tries to understand you.

When trust doesn't seem exist anymore.

When you start to doubt yourself.

When you're just emotinally tired of all the crap around you.

When your happy, optimistic bubble bursts and you just feel like giving up.

When you just feel alone.

When you realize that all the while, the cause of their actions has always been your fault, and never theirs.